Stalked

I've never felt so insecure in my life. Footsteps are heard, and their louder than ever. The sidewalk is rough, and the air is filled with fumes. Voices are heard from the other side of the school, and breathing is more vital than ever.

Home never seemed so welcome, and never felt like a sancturay to me. I never felt so safe before.



Things have changed ever since my last blog. I found friends, and I don't hang out with Angie* anymore. Julie*, Kami* and Cady* are now my friends in school. I'm not emo anymore, and I'm as happy as ever. I am no longer lonely, and tomorrow, I'll be at Kami's house. But, that's not the point of this blog.





After leaving Angie and Ruko* (Angie's friend), things have gotten better, and worse. Angie has been following, watching, and even stalking me. -pause-
You must be thinking, "Oh, maybe she misses you! Thats all! Why make such a fuss about someone who misses you?"
Well, for your information, that is not missing. Missing someone would be missing them because of how special your relationship was with that person, and, let me tell you, that relationship was FAR from special. Talking about nothing isint special, staying silent and awkward isint special, and, of course, having nothing in common isint special. -play-

During recess or lunch, I hear her dragging footsteps on the ground. At masses or during class, [when I'm behind her] she always looks back. Even during the Christmas Program! I came late, so I had to sit at the far back. In front of me was HER row, and she kept on staring at me! What a creep!
Whatever I do, she does. When I go this way, she follows me. If I take this route, she takes the same. When I pass by, she stares. Even when I just come into the classroom... she looks!

I've been warned about this before, and it ends up in my face.

For an awkward reason, I've always wanted the boy of my dreams to like me. But, that couldn't possibly happen. One: He doesen't exsist. Two: I found him, but made a mess. I slipped, and he was gone. Three: I now study in an all girls school. For the rest of my high school life, the only interaction I will have with boys would be in suares (please excuse my spelling).

But this, this is disturbing. Having a girl to look at you in a weird way, like the way guys look at their, er, crushes, having her as your classmate, and seeing her everyday is a nightmare. People are always thinking that Angie and I are ... ugh, friends. Their headstrong minds always picking their friends during groupings and leaving only the outcasts behind, just like meat and its bone; eat the meat, leave out the bone. I'm sick and tired of it. Whenever I confront them, they wouldn't listen. They would just do it all over again. I might as well stay alone for goodness sake!

I remember Ruko telling me that Cady had once spread a rumor about either Angie or Ruko being a lesbian, and now, now I can see just why. In my view, its not a rumor, and now I can see why she spread it.

Note:
To whoever reads this, please don't get offended. This is my own rant, and I'm only whining.
I respect you, its just that I hate Angie, for that, and for everything.
Again, my apologies.


*Names changed for privacy and saftey.